I'm Not Moses.

Then Moses entered the cloud as he went on up the mountain. And he stayed on the mountain forty days and forty nights.      Exodus 24:18

   Recently, when visiting my son in California, I told him that I wanted to walk outdoors every day in the beautiful warm sunny weather. He told me he had just the path in mind, so we headed out one beautiful morning for a walk. I was looking forward to the walk, since I was visiting from the cold snowy Midwest. I became a little concerned though when he started driving up a mountain road.

“You know I don’t like heights too well,” I said.
“Oh, mom you’ll be fine, there are many people who walk this path and it is safe.”

 I heard my son saying these words while I looked at the drop off on the side of the mountain as we continued to ascend. When we reached the top of the mountain, he parked the car in a designated area and said, “This is it.”

What I saw was a walking path that winded for miles down the side of a high mountain. I was shocked and scared. 
I walked slowly towards the path and saw a large yellow sign that read, “Caution Rattle Snakes.” I wanted to turn and run away, but I walked forward with my son. Needless to say, that morning walk was one of the scariest moments in my life. The path had steep inclines and declines along with the mountain attitude which contributed to my constant panting for air.

As I was inching my way along the path, I started to think of Moses. How could Moses stay up on a mountain for 40 days? How could he even walk up a mountain with no path? I was praying like Moses, but praying for God to get me off that mountain. Fear had gripped me. I continuously prayed for God to help me walk each step along the path. Yes, that mountain walk taught me a lesson; I was no Moses.


What divine faith and commitment Moses had to God. Moses was a living example of true faith in action. Moses really didn’t know the way or God’s plan, but he always followed the commands of God. Moses had great strength against fear. He knew God was bigger than any mountain or any of his fears. Moses had divine strength in faith and great love for God to overcome any fear. Moses, a man who stepped out in faith, walked up an uncharted path on a mountain regardless of the perils and listened to God for directions.

I use to think I was pretty deep in my faith, you know, being an author and writing a book on prayers and meditations, but that mountain made me feel so small. I have a long way to travel. Even though I knew God was with me on the mountain, I had a hard time getting past my fear. I had not put my full trust in God. If I had, the height and fear would have had no effect on me.

In the days and months ahead, I have committed to spending more time with God and His Word. I will be praying for God to increase my faith and trust. Just to let you know, I completed the mountain walk that day with my son. Did I regret it? No, it was a lesson for me in humility, trust and faith.

Can you think of any time when you realized you were not a “Moses” if so please share.